Liberdade do coração

It took me around 8 years to follow my dream of a really long journey.As i grew up in South america and then moved back to Germany when I was 11I guess I always had a strong desire to go back, to experience more, to see more of other countries. I travelled a lot, but that where mostly short trips in Europe or business trips, so not really satisfying me and my idea of being free of the normal everyday life. I also must admit that I kind of liked my comfort bubble and the security of my monthly pay check. But the older I got the more I missed something and my desire to leave grew bigger. It never really was important where to travel to...it was important just to do it.
When i finally decided to leave to Australia I got the most different comments to it.
" Wow thats great"
" I wish i could do that"
" Thats cool, but aren´t you afraid of having trouble to find a job again coming back?"
My ex-boyfriend asked me:" Why do you have to do this journey?" The only thing that I could respond was:
" I don´t know, but I know that I have to do it...i´m following my dream"
And that's what i did, and it was the best decision of my life.
But to be honest it was also a very tough decision for me...it took me 2 years of serious considering, half a year of planning and 2 months of second thoughts before just going into uncertainty and adventure.But even then..as I was always sensible, I had my plans, followed them without big hesitation and was always a step ahead in my itinerary.It was when I arrived in Australia and met Scott when I got to know another way of thinking and living. I was always worried, about finding a job, about money, about missing my family and friends back home, about being alone, about travelling alone, about breaking down with my van...the list goes on and on.
He said to me: " Don´t worry, you´ll get everything you need right when you really need it. Just let go"
Just let go.
So easy to say, so hard to really do. But he was right. I learned more and more not to worry so much, to let go, to be positive and to enjoy life.
To enjoy the moment.
And i noticed that everything changed.I got everything i needed when i needed it, Sometimes I had to wait a little, but when it came to me I realised that I wasn´t ready for it earlier anyway. A lot of times the universe wanted to teach me how to be patient....with little signs...like always having red lights when I was in a hurry, having to wait for replies from facebook or email, people not attending their phones when I wanted to talk to them ( NOW, of course!). After a while I just had to laugh about myself, so I just sat back and waited.
And like this I met the most interesting people on my way, each and one of them teaching me their ideas about life, freedom, enjoyment and love.  Each of them becoming a part of me.
I also met people that showed me how i don´t want to act and be, but even that is important, because even if you don´t know where you´re going..at least you know where you don´t want to go.
Do I know where I want to go now? Do I have everything sorted out? I thought I would by the time ending this journey and going back home. But I haven´t.
First I was really nervous about it, but now I just let go again.
I don´t have everything calculated, I don´t have my life figured out, but I know now that I move with the time, I am passionate to live, passionate to cross, passionate to get to know what´s behind the next curve, the next mountain, the next lake, the next sea.Passionate to get to know new people and ask them how they feel, what their passion is and what they think.Because the most important thing about life is the people you meet. They become part of you and your heart and shape you to a better person.
In the end life is a journey with an unknown destination, so I enjoy the way, listen,observe, share, taste and feel.
I pay with a smile that comes from my heart and the only thing I expect is one back.

So whatever you dream about, whatever is on your mind over and over again, whatever your heart is longing for, don´t let doubts, critics, age, money, your family or society keep you from following it.
Just do it!
Take the steps in the direction of your dream NOW.

with love, J